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I have some news, kind of. I was invited to join a group on dA (a metal group ^_^), which is awesome. I don’t know how they came across me, really, but it makes me feel glad that they did. I haven’t posted anything on there in a looong time, other than bios of characters from The Door. With how busy I’ve been lately, I haven’t had the chance to do any artistic things. I haven’t even been able to sing like I used to.

I just realized something. Earlier, when I was asleep, Vlad called me and woke me up and asked me if I had to work Wednesday. I said I wouldn’t know until probably tomorrow. He said to tell him as soon as possible… I just woke up in my mind, just now, typing… and Wednesday is my birthday. Is he planning something?!

Yeah, it takes me a while to wake up, I guess. I have been up for about an hour now… I still need to run to my mom’s house and spend some time with her before I go to that work-meeting. It will be the first time in quite a while that I attend a work-meeting. I’m a bit excited, which I suppose is a bit funny. However, to those of you who don’t understand what a joy it is to have a job, no matter how “lowly” it may seem, the simple fact is that it is a privilege to work. Especially here of late. Sometime next month, the company that my cousin works at will suddenly shut down. The employees don’t even know when their last day will be. I understand how terrifying it is to be without a job, and I know that time goes on, even when we need it to slow down for us.

I guess I’ve been jumping all over the place in this post, but I am truly at a strange place right now. I keep dreaming about that manga, and I think about it right before I go to sleep, and right when I wake up. Do you understand just how weird that is for me? Rarely do even my OWN stories get me this worked up. It’s terrifyingly amazing.

However, in my last post, I said that it was causing me heart pains. That was most likely a coincidence. I called my doctor and he told me that it was probably too much caffeine. Which I guess could be plausible. I drink nothing but water, since it’s the only thing I have in the house. I get to work and immediately drown myself in caffeinated drinks. Usually it doesn’t bother me, seriously, but if that is what it is, it won’t happen anymore. However, if it persists, I guess we could call those instances panic attacks?

Anyway, sorry if I didn’t make sense much throughout this post. After all, I just woke up, and I will probably forget entirely that I wrote this in about thirty minutes. So…

When did I write this?


Ohh, My Head…. And Heart

Sorry, I know I’ve been gone a while, but I have a perfectly reasonable explanation.

I fell in love with a story! I read probably 2 gigantic novels’ worth of pages online in just three days– unless you count the two nights I stayed up. I ran out of chapters– SOMEONE PLEASE TRANSLATE THE NEXT ISSUE!!!!!!!

Now, if you would like to experience the story, I would like to tell you about it a bit. It is a manga (a Japanese comic book, “basically”) and it is about revenge! (and later, love!) I was in high school and a friend brought the issues from home, and I read them much in the way I devour a chocolate lava cake (which is to say gruesomely fast and happily). However, she ran out of issues, and I ran out of interest– since I had no possible way to get ahold of the manga itself, and at the time I had no internet connection, so I couldn’t read it online.

So a few days ago, I happened to think: “I should look it up, and see if it’s on here.” when I was browsing through http://www.mangareader.net. I found it, and thought, I should read up the first pages, since I can’t really remember much about it…

And that’s where I lost my mind.

I will explain something: I don’t watch movies, don’t get absorbed in tv shows, and I don’t read much anymore. Why? Because I become one with the character. I read it so deeply that I dream about it, and the moods of the characters intertwine with mine. In fact, last night when I was at work, I started having heart pain. There was no reason for that- really. I haven’t felt that kind of pain since I fell in love with Vlad (my fiance). I am literally feeling what the main character of the story feels. It’s unbelievably scary!

But, to make it worse, I’m utterly doomed as of today! I reached the end of the series so far– Until someone translates the next entry. And where it left off……… I am going to die.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! (click here for awesomeness)

But, no matter how long it takes, I am going to wait patiently (yea right) for the next issue. Because I don’t know where to find the Japanese pages and translate them myself. Plus, my computer hates me enough that it won’t even let me access that link I inserted above. If it doesn’t work, please tell me so I can fix it.