Let it Ensue.

Well, over the course of one day and a sleepless night, I proofread, edited, and FINALLY FINISHED THE STORY of The Door. Yes, I finally finished. That makes it the first story I’ve ever entirely finished. In entirety. Ever, so far. I will remind you that I’ve been writing stories since 3rd grade.

So, yeah. In the near future, maybe I’ll find a publisher that can help me out– and then we’ll have ourselves a novel!

Excitement aside, I’m going to bite the bullet and get to work tonight. My original idea is going to have to wait a while, so until then, I’ll get into the thick of it. As for games to start with… I have a bit of more good news. Due to a string of events I don’t want to explain at this time, I managed to get a free PS3! I have Prototype, Soul Calibur IV, and Ni No Kuni (which was made by Level 5, same people who made Dark Cloud and Dark Chronicle! I see many simularities so far!) Sounds good, right? I’m still wondering at this moment which game I’ll play, or whether I’ll just go for my PS2 games first…. Grrr…

If any of these new games interest you, please tell me! I intend to do this in earnest, so I do actually need some feedback. I won’t be able to get any more games for months, and if this doesn’t take off immediately, I might lose the possibility of pursuing it further. Any support is welcome.

So that’s all for this update. I should have another one tonight while I’m editing the footage.


Life-Altering Changes

A great deal has happened. In fact, enough has changed that it left my family shocked– and even me.

I left Vlad recently. I feel that, even though I am grateful to him for helping me through these years, I appreciated him more as a friend than as a lover. It was the first time I’d ever broken up with someone, and it was… painful for both of us. I decided that I would rather leave him now than wait 3 to 7 years from now when we’re at the altar. I thought that it would hurt him less now than then.

There is no sugar-coat to the words I’m about to say: I found someone else, and that was the catalyst to my leaving Vlad. I know that sounds bad, but I like to pride myself on my honesty. I’m sure there are a lot of things that should be said, but I think it proper that I not speak that freely about the tender feelings of the wounded. I still love Vlad as a friend, and I would never slander him on my blog– I have no cause to. Anyone who has read my other posts know what an impact he had on me, and how much he helped me become who I am today.

In other news… I will start doing online videos very soon. I need to figure out my new equipment, as well as what I can do. I will have time in the future to start working on stories again, and I will start looking into publications– so that way I can upload a few of my short stories for your enjoyment.

And finally, I would like to say that I am in a great deal of pain. I know that seems slightly random or whiny… I don’t mean for it to be that way. I am putting this down for reference. I have been in excruciating pain for roughly three weeks now. It is difficult to walk and nearly impossible to sleep. The pain is deep in my right hip’s joint. Every step I take puts pressure not only on something that feels dislocated, but also applies strain to my other hip, which causes sharp pain throughout my pelvis. When at rest, no matter what position, sitting, laying, or standing, the pain in my right hip is so great that it feels like someone harpooned me through said joint, and the pain goes down to my knee, and sometimes even to the ankle in liquid spurts of agony.

Usually, when this happens, it only lasts a couple of weeks and then goes away almost as swiftly as it arrives, but this time it not only persists but has gotten worse than it ever had before. Heat, ice, rest– none of these do any good whatsoever. So please, keep me in your prayers, if you don’t mind.

But like I said earlier, I am not griping. Mostly, I am just stating why I am limited to my house for now. I missed a lot of work over this hip.

Anyway, I’ll keep you all posted on my youtubing. Just keep an eye out. I am back now– and I won’t disappear again. In fact, I will even start drawing again in the near future– I am getting a new item in the mail in a few days, hopefully, that will allow me the ability to draw via paint shop pro 8– I really hope it will be compatible. The only thing I’ll need then is a nice stylus– and then I’ll be set. I will then start on all the things I’ve been meaning to begin. Concept art, and all that jazz.

I’ve been getting into more games lately– and I see an end to my debt! Everything will go fine, within the next month or so. I might even have a PS3, and eventually, a PS4. Anyhow, I’ll have plenty to talk to you guys about in my next post. Any questions not involving the breakup will be answered. Drop me a line!

List of 50 Games I Have to Replay (Due to Memory Card Destruction)

  1. A Series of Unfortunate Events (which was surprisingly great, other than some awkward voice acting at times)
  2. Castlevania: Lament of Innocence (an excellent game, with an immensely gorgeous soundtrack)
  3. Crash Bandicoot: The Wrath of Cortex (there are many levels, and each one has to be played through at least twice– I might avoid doing time trials in the playthroughs unless I was asked. After all, every second counts, and if I know any secrets on how to beat the level faster, I’d be happy to pass them along. In a regular playthough, though, I would just play the levels, and show that I got the gems and time-relics for that level, rather than waste anyone’s time and play through up to four times UNLESS, once again, I am asked.)
  4. Crash Twinsanity (May not be able to do this one in videos, because my copy is EXTREMELY glitchy. Will explain more on that one later)
  5. Dark Cloud (Would take many parts, since it’s such an awesome/long game, and I am very thorough)
  6. Dark Cloud 2/Dark Chronicle (I don’t have this anymore, but will try to buy it somewhere if I can find it. would also take a lot of parts)
  7. Destroy All Humans (very straight-forward and vulgar game.)
  8. Destroy All Humans 2 (second verse same as the first, as they say)
  9. Devil May Cry
  10. Devil May Cry 2 (would play both discs)
  11. Final Fantasy X (Since these were remade for PS3, I might hesitate to do them– perhaps I could game with a friend of mine who I believe has these? Who knows– but I’d love to play the enhanced version, as you all know from my previous posts)
  12. Final Fantasy X-2 (Luckily, would only have to play through once. If I were to unlock EVERY SINGLE THING on the first playthrough, the perfect ending includes every ending but the bad one– which you can easily look up elsewhere. No destroying the world for me. At least, not in this game.)
  13. Final Fantasy XII (would only take one playthrough, if a bit lengthy.)
  14. Godhand (only suggested for mature audiences. It is hilariously raunchy)
  15. Grand Theft Auto: Vice City (My copy seems to be broken, or maybe my PS2 just doesn’t want to read it anymore)
  16. Ico (An amazing game that was remade for PS3. I have PS3 envy– but I might be able to play it on my friend’s PS3.)
  17. Jak 2 (I would prefer to wait on this until I find the first game)
  18. Jak 3 (I don’t want to go out of order)
  19. Kingdom Hearts (Since these games have come out on PS3, in HD and with all the extra bits thrown in, my games are completely obsolete. However, my PS3 buddy might have me covered on this.)
  20. Kingdom Hearts Re: Chain of Memory (See Kingdom Hearts)
  21. Kingdom Hearts II (See Kingdom Hearts)
  22. Mortal Kombat Armageddon (Could do Quest mode, and also show each characters ending in arcade mode.)
  23. Okami (Denkir the Filtiarn originally lent me this, and I’m sure he would let me borrow it again, if I ask nicely…)
  24. Onimusha Blade Warriors (would take an insane amount of playthroughs, because of the number of characters you could play as.)
  25. Onimusha 2 Samurai’s Destiny (would also take several playthroughs, since each character other than the main one influences the game, depending on how you do things involving specific characters. That means 3 different playthroughs for that game)
  26. Onimusha: Warlords (Would only take one playthrough)
  27. Ratchet & Clank
  28. Ratchet & Clank: Size Matters
  29. Ratchet & Clank: Going Commando
  30. Ratchet: Deadlocked
  31. Shadow of the Colossus (Seriously one of my absolute favorite games with the absolute best soundtrack I’ve ever heard. Since it was remade for PS3, maybe my buddy will let me play it on his console.)
  32. Silent Hill: Shattered Memories (This game would take every nerve I have. I am terrified by zombies– and although this game doesn’t technically feature them, it still creeps me out. I would also have to play through multiple times to show the differences in “ghost” events as well as cutscenes, not to mention the secret ending.)
  33. Soul Calibur II (I guess I could play through Tale of Souls as every character, to show every ending…)
  34. Soul Calibur III (I guess I could play through Tale of Souls and Chronicle of the Sword to show all endings…)
  35. Spyro: Enter the Dragonfly (my copy is slightly glitchy, but nothing that ruins gameplay. In fact, it sometimes adds to it. Good for a laugh at times)
  36. Spyro: A Hero’s Tail (the change between games is so amazing, you can tell that a different company made this one, aside from the change in voice actors. Formerly, Tom Kenny, voice of Spongebob, did the voice of Spyro– except for the original Spyro the Dragon– and in A Hero’s Tail, they changed voice actors.)
  37. SSX Tricky (Not sure I should do anything on this, as it would be pretty boring, in my opinion. But if you disagree, leave a comment)
  38. SSX On Tour (Not sure I should do anything on this, as it would be pretty boring, in my opinion. But if you disagree, leave a comment)
  39. Star Ocean: Till the End of Time (Such a lengthy game, and I would have to play through more than once, twice at least, to get all the endings)
  40. Star Wars Bounty Hunter
  41. Suikoden IV (would take a lot of parts, since it’s necessary to get every character to get the secret ending)
  42. Tenchu Fatal Shadows (COULD do every version of every chapter, as both characters, and do story arcs separately. Very good game)
  43. The Legend of Spyro: A New Beginning (only have to play through once)
  44. The Legend of Spyro: The Eternal Night (only have to play through once)
  45. The Legend of Spyro: Dawn of the Dragon (there are mini-bosses on some stages, requiring a second playthrough)
  46. The Mummy Returns (would have to play through twice, since there are two different stories…)
  47. The Simpsons Game (one playthrough is all that’s needed)
  48. Tony Hawk’s Underground (I bought this one not long ago– don’t even know if it works)
  49. Tony Hawk’s Underground 2 (only one playthrough necessary, but would advise mature audiences only)
  50. Van Hellsing (which was surprisingly bad, graphics-wise, but would require 2 playthroughs, to get extra unlockables/cheats)

Just to be clear, I will not even attempt to do Crash Twinsanity or Silent Hill: Shattered Memories UNLESS you ask in the comments. What you want matters. However, the Crash game is so severely glitchy that it becomes absolutely infuriating to play and watch– however, I fill the waiting time with glimpses at the extras unlocked throughout the game. If that appeals to you, by all means, tell me, and I will try to play it as smoothly as I can.

As for Silent Hill? I would like to keep my sanity in tact, but once again, I will definitely try to play it through the multitude of times necessary for the sake of anyone who really wants to see the gameplay, hear the soundtrack, and see the events of the game. Call me a pansy if you want, I just don’t like playing it alone– and I don’t have many gaming buddies.

Other games that might prove to be stumbling blocks are my Onimusha games, just because of the sheer number of playthroughs necessary (other than Warlords. That one is pretty straight-forward, ending wise). Samurai’s Destiny would require 3 playthroughs, as stated above, and Blade Warriors…. Ugh… that one will take so many playthroughs because of each unlockable character. To unlock them, go through the story mode as this character, and this character, and this one… that will be a serialized nightmare– but well worth the effort.

Now, unless I’m missing something (other than my original Playstation games that DIDN’T get wiped) that is the entire list of my PS2 games, other than Guitar Hero games (which my PS2 refuses to read, and no one really wants to see YET ANOTHER person playing Guitar Hero. Especially since I suck at it– except Band Hero, since I can sing it. But that’s irrelevant!) and some wrestling games (but who plays those for the story, anyway?–Eh, I guess I could do it, but I doubt anyone will ask).

Anyway… Anyone who cares, I urge you to vote on these! Even one vote counts! Just remember, though, that I can’t make these immediately due to my debt and lack of equipment needed to make amazing videos.

And, as always, any questions will gladly be answered.