Let it Ensue.

Well, over the course of one day and a sleepless night, I proofread, edited, and FINALLY FINISHED THE STORY of The Door. Yes, I finally finished. That makes it the first story I’ve ever entirely finished. In entirety. Ever, so far. I will remind you that I’ve been writing stories since 3rd grade.

So, yeah. In the near future, maybe I’ll find a publisher that can help me out– and then we’ll have ourselves a novel!

Excitement aside, I’m going to bite the bullet and get to work tonight. My original idea is going to have to wait a while, so until then, I’ll get into the thick of it. As for games to start with… I have a bit of more good news. Due to a string of events I don’t want to explain at this time, I managed to get a free PS3! I have Prototype, Soul Calibur IV, and Ni No Kuni (which was made by Level 5, same people who made Dark Cloud and Dark Chronicle! I see many simularities so far!) Sounds good, right? I’m still wondering at this moment which game I’ll play, or whether I’ll just go for my PS2 games first…. Grrr…

If any of these new games interest you, please tell me! I intend to do this in earnest, so I do actually need some feedback. I won’t be able to get any more games for months, and if this doesn’t take off immediately, I might lose the possibility of pursuing it further. Any support is welcome.

So that’s all for this update. I should have another one tonight while I’m editing the footage.


Okay, Guys. Down to Business. Calling All Gamers!

Well, here we are. I have the basic equipment I needed for the gameplay videos. Now I just need to find out what game to start with. I should probably start out with some relatively short games, so Ico, Shadow of the Colossus, and a few others would work well, however I wanted to wait until we have a PS3 so we can play the newer edition– at least for Ico, since that will unlock 2p capabilities.

Anyhow, I also have the capability to play such games as Don’t Starve, and quite a few SNES games using an emulator (Most of these SNES games are from my early childhood, and I am excited to play them. In fact, a few of them, I dare say, started me on the path of the gamer. A few are Mickey Mania, Paperboy, Donkey Kong, and a few others. I intend to get some that I missed out on as a kid, such as Fire Emblem and Chrono Trigger– and for the horror lovers, Clock Tower).

So yes, any suggestions will be heard! The list of games I own for PS2 are in this post: https://myonlyreality.wordpress.com/2013/11/10/list-of-games-i-have-to-replay-due-to-memory-card-destruction/

Life-Altering Changes

A great deal has happened. In fact, enough has changed that it left my family shocked– and even me.

I left Vlad recently. I feel that, even though I am grateful to him for helping me through these years, I appreciated him more as a friend than as a lover. It was the first time I’d ever broken up with someone, and it was… painful for both of us. I decided that I would rather leave him now than wait 3 to 7 years from now when we’re at the altar. I thought that it would hurt him less now than then.

There is no sugar-coat to the words I’m about to say: I found someone else, and that was the catalyst to my leaving Vlad. I know that sounds bad, but I like to pride myself on my honesty. I’m sure there are a lot of things that should be said, but I think it proper that I not speak that freely about the tender feelings of the wounded. I still love Vlad as a friend, and I would never slander him on my blog– I have no cause to. Anyone who has read my other posts know what an impact he had on me, and how much he helped me become who I am today.

In other news… I will start doing online videos very soon. I need to figure out my new equipment, as well as what I can do. I will have time in the future to start working on stories again, and I will start looking into publications– so that way I can upload a few of my short stories for your enjoyment.

And finally, I would like to say that I am in a great deal of pain. I know that seems slightly random or whiny… I don’t mean for it to be that way. I am putting this down for reference. I have been in excruciating pain for roughly three weeks now. It is difficult to walk and nearly impossible to sleep. The pain is deep in my right hip’s joint. Every step I take puts pressure not only on something that feels dislocated, but also applies strain to my other hip, which causes sharp pain throughout my pelvis. When at rest, no matter what position, sitting, laying, or standing, the pain in my right hip is so great that it feels like someone harpooned me through said joint, and the pain goes down to my knee, and sometimes even to the ankle in liquid spurts of agony.

Usually, when this happens, it only lasts a couple of weeks and then goes away almost as swiftly as it arrives, but this time it not only persists but has gotten worse than it ever had before. Heat, ice, rest– none of these do any good whatsoever. So please, keep me in your prayers, if you don’t mind.

But like I said earlier, I am not griping. Mostly, I am just stating why I am limited to my house for now. I missed a lot of work over this hip.

Anyway, I’ll keep you all posted on my youtubing. Just keep an eye out. I am back now– and I won’t disappear again. In fact, I will even start drawing again in the near future– I am getting a new item in the mail in a few days, hopefully, that will allow me the ability to draw via paint shop pro 8– I really hope it will be compatible. The only thing I’ll need then is a nice stylus– and then I’ll be set. I will then start on all the things I’ve been meaning to begin. Concept art, and all that jazz.

I’ve been getting into more games lately– and I see an end to my debt! Everything will go fine, within the next month or so. I might even have a PS3, and eventually, a PS4. Anyhow, I’ll have plenty to talk to you guys about in my next post. Any questions not involving the breakup will be answered. Drop me a line!

About My Gaming Situation

I borrowed a copy of Codebreaker that had definitely seen better days, and used the SkipDr on it until it would work if you held your breath (and squinted, crossed your fingers and toes, and jumped up and down while clucking madly like a chicken). I need to tell you one thing. I have 50 games. And 4 cards. They are all full to the brim, especially with how much memory Codebreaker consumes. I kept Codebreaker on my first memory card, which had my most beloved games on it (Dark Cloud, Spyro, Final Fantasy) so I could cheat to my heart’s content. For a while, that worked well. So what went wrong?

I noticed on the Codebreaker menu that I could look at what was on my cards, which is cool, since I could put Codebreaker in, decide what game I wanted to play/destroy, and then find which memory card had the data on it, so that way I wouldn’t have to restart, look at the cards, and then go through the laborious process of getting the Codebreaker to work again (I don’t enjoy jumping up and down and clucking madly like a chicken. It is degrading for me, and it bothers my neighbors). So I was viewing what was on the card, and I discovered that I could condense data to make more space. My first reaction was HOW DID I NOT FIND THIS SOONER!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!! and I, without hesitation, condensed all the games that I had not played in the previous 2 weeks (which was about all of them, with the exception of Dark Cloud, Final Fantasy, and Star Ocean. A few others, as well, but…).

I started playing Grand Theft Auto Vice City, after that. It was one of the files that I didn’t condense, because I was enjoying the cheats. When the game loaded I discovered that my previous data was gone, somehow. When the game eventually froze, I looked at the memory card– and discovered it was entirely blank.

Now, this is the card that has all of my favorite games. Dark Cloud, for crying out loud, had data from 10 years ago! 10 years! I had maxed out the time on my first profile, and visited the dungeons 376 times (or somewhere in that range. I was trying to get to 999 to see if it was limited to that. I guess I’ll never know, now). My Crash Bandicoot, my Spyro, my Final Fantasy games, my Kingdom Hearts games… All were obliterated somehow– and I assumed that, since it happened to that card that it happened to all of them, and the idea of that was too terrible to imagine, so I simply refused to look at the other 3 cards.

Desperate to see if I could get my data back through Codebreaker, I tried like mad to get it to load– but to no avail. Grand Theft Auto won’t load either, anymore. My PS2 has declared war on me, or so it seems. So, faced with the reality that I would never get that data back, I finally decided to look at the other 3 cards a couple of days ago.

All non-condensed files were saved. However, the funny thing of that is the only other non-condensed file was Star Ocean, which will crash without using Codebreaker– since I was cheating so hard… So I am left with no game files (but maybe two, and one was botched, and corrupt– no idea what game it was, either). So, you see, it was still pretty bad, even though for those 3 cards, I can get back the data, if I ever find another functioning copy of Codebreaker, since the data is still on those cards. The only one that was completely wiped clean was my favorite card, which is definitely the irony of things.

So, I definitely have to replay all of my games due to my stupid decision. I mean, while condensing, I even thought, “maybe I should only do it to one card, to see if it will have any ill effects” but I thought, “I can always replay the games, and besides, it won’t touch Dark Cloud, since I won’t be condensing it!” Shows what I knew.

Now when I get the urge to play a game, I kind of die inside, because I can’t reach the level I wanted to play, typically because it is located in the final hemisphere of the game. So I have to play the game through all the way, which takes all the joy out of it, and by the time I reach the part I wanted to play– if I reach it at all– I am so upset that it takes the satisfaction out of it. I love the games, but if I want to play a specific part, I want that part– not the five hours of gameplay it takes to get to that part. That’s what my save files were for– so I could access the game when and where I wanted to play it!

So, in short, I’m going crazy. I really wish I could do playthrough videos already– but at least I know that I have a buddy (or two) that I can play with when I finally get the materials. I might even be able to start early, depending on what goes on. Denkir seemed interested in doing playthroughs– or maybe I misconstrued. If we got the things needed, we could do voiced-playthroughs on his youtube channel, and just-the-game playthroughs on mine. In any case, it would be fun. And for those of you who hate old games, he has more modern ones. I probably would, too, but I’m broke. And when I get money, it’s not going towards a console– it’s going toward groceries. Lots and lots of groceries. I will be so stocked up that my shelves will overflow and collapse. I’ll have to store food under my bed and in my closet and everywhere between. I don’t care– I just want food in the house again! Consoles can wait until then.

List of 50 Games I Have to Replay (Due to Memory Card Destruction)

  1. A Series of Unfortunate Events (which was surprisingly great, other than some awkward voice acting at times)
  2. Castlevania: Lament of Innocence (an excellent game, with an immensely gorgeous soundtrack)
  3. Crash Bandicoot: The Wrath of Cortex (there are many levels, and each one has to be played through at least twice– I might avoid doing time trials in the playthroughs unless I was asked. After all, every second counts, and if I know any secrets on how to beat the level faster, I’d be happy to pass them along. In a regular playthough, though, I would just play the levels, and show that I got the gems and time-relics for that level, rather than waste anyone’s time and play through up to four times UNLESS, once again, I am asked.)
  4. Crash Twinsanity (May not be able to do this one in videos, because my copy is EXTREMELY glitchy. Will explain more on that one later)
  5. Dark Cloud (Would take many parts, since it’s such an awesome/long game, and I am very thorough)
  6. Dark Cloud 2/Dark Chronicle (I don’t have this anymore, but will try to buy it somewhere if I can find it. would also take a lot of parts)
  7. Destroy All Humans (very straight-forward and vulgar game.)
  8. Destroy All Humans 2 (second verse same as the first, as they say)
  9. Devil May Cry
  10. Devil May Cry 2 (would play both discs)
  11. Final Fantasy X (Since these were remade for PS3, I might hesitate to do them– perhaps I could game with a friend of mine who I believe has these? Who knows– but I’d love to play the enhanced version, as you all know from my previous posts)
  12. Final Fantasy X-2 (Luckily, would only have to play through once. If I were to unlock EVERY SINGLE THING on the first playthrough, the perfect ending includes every ending but the bad one– which you can easily look up elsewhere. No destroying the world for me. At least, not in this game.)
  13. Final Fantasy XII (would only take one playthrough, if a bit lengthy.)
  14. Godhand (only suggested for mature audiences. It is hilariously raunchy)
  15. Grand Theft Auto: Vice City (My copy seems to be broken, or maybe my PS2 just doesn’t want to read it anymore)
  16. Ico (An amazing game that was remade for PS3. I have PS3 envy– but I might be able to play it on my friend’s PS3.)
  17. Jak 2 (I would prefer to wait on this until I find the first game)
  18. Jak 3 (I don’t want to go out of order)
  19. Kingdom Hearts (Since these games have come out on PS3, in HD and with all the extra bits thrown in, my games are completely obsolete. However, my PS3 buddy might have me covered on this.)
  20. Kingdom Hearts Re: Chain of Memory (See Kingdom Hearts)
  21. Kingdom Hearts II (See Kingdom Hearts)
  22. Mortal Kombat Armageddon (Could do Quest mode, and also show each characters ending in arcade mode.)
  23. Okami (Denkir the Filtiarn originally lent me this, and I’m sure he would let me borrow it again, if I ask nicely…)
  24. Onimusha Blade Warriors (would take an insane amount of playthroughs, because of the number of characters you could play as.)
  25. Onimusha 2 Samurai’s Destiny (would also take several playthroughs, since each character other than the main one influences the game, depending on how you do things involving specific characters. That means 3 different playthroughs for that game)
  26. Onimusha: Warlords (Would only take one playthrough)
  27. Ratchet & Clank
  28. Ratchet & Clank: Size Matters
  29. Ratchet & Clank: Going Commando
  30. Ratchet: Deadlocked
  31. Shadow of the Colossus (Seriously one of my absolute favorite games with the absolute best soundtrack I’ve ever heard. Since it was remade for PS3, maybe my buddy will let me play it on his console.)
  32. Silent Hill: Shattered Memories (This game would take every nerve I have. I am terrified by zombies– and although this game doesn’t technically feature them, it still creeps me out. I would also have to play through multiple times to show the differences in “ghost” events as well as cutscenes, not to mention the secret ending.)
  33. Soul Calibur II (I guess I could play through Tale of Souls as every character, to show every ending…)
  34. Soul Calibur III (I guess I could play through Tale of Souls and Chronicle of the Sword to show all endings…)
  35. Spyro: Enter the Dragonfly (my copy is slightly glitchy, but nothing that ruins gameplay. In fact, it sometimes adds to it. Good for a laugh at times)
  36. Spyro: A Hero’s Tail (the change between games is so amazing, you can tell that a different company made this one, aside from the change in voice actors. Formerly, Tom Kenny, voice of Spongebob, did the voice of Spyro– except for the original Spyro the Dragon– and in A Hero’s Tail, they changed voice actors.)
  37. SSX Tricky (Not sure I should do anything on this, as it would be pretty boring, in my opinion. But if you disagree, leave a comment)
  38. SSX On Tour (Not sure I should do anything on this, as it would be pretty boring, in my opinion. But if you disagree, leave a comment)
  39. Star Ocean: Till the End of Time (Such a lengthy game, and I would have to play through more than once, twice at least, to get all the endings)
  40. Star Wars Bounty Hunter
  41. Suikoden IV (would take a lot of parts, since it’s necessary to get every character to get the secret ending)
  42. Tenchu Fatal Shadows (COULD do every version of every chapter, as both characters, and do story arcs separately. Very good game)
  43. The Legend of Spyro: A New Beginning (only have to play through once)
  44. The Legend of Spyro: The Eternal Night (only have to play through once)
  45. The Legend of Spyro: Dawn of the Dragon (there are mini-bosses on some stages, requiring a second playthrough)
  46. The Mummy Returns (would have to play through twice, since there are two different stories…)
  47. The Simpsons Game (one playthrough is all that’s needed)
  48. Tony Hawk’s Underground (I bought this one not long ago– don’t even know if it works)
  49. Tony Hawk’s Underground 2 (only one playthrough necessary, but would advise mature audiences only)
  50. Van Hellsing (which was surprisingly bad, graphics-wise, but would require 2 playthroughs, to get extra unlockables/cheats)

Just to be clear, I will not even attempt to do Crash Twinsanity or Silent Hill: Shattered Memories UNLESS you ask in the comments. What you want matters. However, the Crash game is so severely glitchy that it becomes absolutely infuriating to play and watch– however, I fill the waiting time with glimpses at the extras unlocked throughout the game. If that appeals to you, by all means, tell me, and I will try to play it as smoothly as I can.

As for Silent Hill? I would like to keep my sanity in tact, but once again, I will definitely try to play it through the multitude of times necessary for the sake of anyone who really wants to see the gameplay, hear the soundtrack, and see the events of the game. Call me a pansy if you want, I just don’t like playing it alone– and I don’t have many gaming buddies.

Other games that might prove to be stumbling blocks are my Onimusha games, just because of the sheer number of playthroughs necessary (other than Warlords. That one is pretty straight-forward, ending wise). Samurai’s Destiny would require 3 playthroughs, as stated above, and Blade Warriors…. Ugh… that one will take so many playthroughs because of each unlockable character. To unlock them, go through the story mode as this character, and this character, and this one… that will be a serialized nightmare– but well worth the effort.

Now, unless I’m missing something (other than my original Playstation games that DIDN’T get wiped) that is the entire list of my PS2 games, other than Guitar Hero games (which my PS2 refuses to read, and no one really wants to see YET ANOTHER person playing Guitar Hero. Especially since I suck at it– except Band Hero, since I can sing it. But that’s irrelevant!) and some wrestling games (but who plays those for the story, anyway?–Eh, I guess I could do it, but I doubt anyone will ask).

Anyway… Anyone who cares, I urge you to vote on these! Even one vote counts! Just remember, though, that I can’t make these immediately due to my debt and lack of equipment needed to make amazing videos.

And, as always, any questions will gladly be answered.

A Fresh Idea

Hello, again everyone! I hope this post finds you all in good health– and that you are ready for me to spout nonsense. Just kidding. Maybe next time.

What I am wanting to share with you on this fine night is an idea that I’ve toyed with since I started this blog–perhaps even before. I want to post playthroughs of old video games (like ps2 games, since that’s the only console I have…) and now is the best opportunity to, since I will have to start fresh. All 4 of my memory cards were wiped absolutely clean. I almost cried. A lot of that data had been on there since I was in 3rd grade… which is (hold on I’m counting…) 10 years, if I’m not mistaken. All of those stored memories, crushed! But, oh well. It can all be replayed and recorded– and then posted on youtube.

So you may ask, how will my videos be any different from other playthrough videos? My answer is I WON’T BE TALKING DURING IT!!! Nothing annoys me more, honestly, than watching someone play through a game that I’m watching on youtube because I no longer own it and thus cannot play myself that the person who is playing yammering on and on. Okay, it’s not that bad, but wouldn’t it be a breath of fresh air to enjoy the soundtrack?!

My inspiration was a guy on youtube called Cardrivesu, I think (may edit in future if I’m wrong). He did playthroughs of Abe’s Oddysee and Abe’s Exodus, one of which I never finished, and the other I’d never played but had wanted to. He doesn’t speak during it, he plays through the game, and lets the character and the game speak for him. That is what I would like to do.

As for what games I will do, I will post a list, and any votes on what should come first would be nice. If anyone cares, that is. Otherwise, I’ll just play whatever I get a craving for.

Now, the big topic: What is holding me back!

As you guys might already know, I was out of a job for well over a month and have accrued about 2000 dollars of debt to pay off. Now, the things I need can be purchased over the Internet, apparently, and are dirt cheap, but… Even 5 bucks is too much to spare. So, I might have to wait until next year, when my debt is paid in full. That pains me, really, but I don’t think I have a choice, do I? After all, I will be getting a second job between Christmas and New Year’s (hopefully!) and thus won’t have any time to game.

But in any case, that is what I intend to do in the future, perhaps when I run out of videos to sub and translate, and stuff like that. And you guys knew I game– I used to post things all the time about it (mostly about ffx and ffx-2). So I will be working on that, as well. And who knows… my birthday is this month, and Christmas is around the corner too… perhaps someone I know will help me out? (Ehh… I won’t hold my breath. lol)

As for games I need but don’t have, there are 3 that I need. One is a game I’ve never played, but have the other installments, and feel a bit weird having not played the first yet (Jack and Daxter). And the other two are for the original playstation. I pride myself in having all of the (good) Spyro games. Don’t you dare try to make me play Skylanders– I want no part in it. The games that I need are the original Spyro the Dragon, and Spyro: Year of the Dragon (the third game). Both of these games I had played as a child. They were borrowed, and I had to give them back way before I could finish them. So I have this burning desire to play them through and enjoy them thoroughly. Is that so wrong?!

Around here, it is tough to find these games. I don’t live somewhere where the games just appear, and as I’ve stated, I can’t just buy them over the Internet (need money for that. If I found something here, I could possibly trade for them…) so I’m stuck Spyro-less. I have all of the others. I have the second game (Ripto’s Rage/Gateway to Glimmer), the fourth game (Enter the Dragonfly, even though my copy is slightly glitchy), the fifth (A Hero’s Tail), and the latest installments, The Legend of Spyro (I have all three). As you may be able to tell, I like Spyro a lot… and so it is kind of a bummer that I don’t have my favorite two games in the series.

As for other games I intend to (re)play… In the next post, I will list them. I think that’s enough for now.